January 3, 2019
Here we are again, finding ourselves at the genesis of a New Near. She's glowing in all her spender, bountiful in hope and yearning in anticipation. I delight in the overwhelming optimism January breeds, abounding in opportunity, 365 vacant days waiting to revel in the life you create.
I was hoping that my one word to focus on this year would come at me like an angry bull charging a rodeo clown. No such luck. After wrestling around with a couple other overarching themes, I've chosen the word "U N L E A S H" as my challenge for 2019.
This is where my confession comes in. I've been operating Blonde & Brindle for four years come March. The first couple years it was merely a hobby business, something for me to do in my spare time of working a full time job, a creative outlet, and a fun way to make a little extra moolah. Now that I see this business I've created has a lot of potential, it's been hard for me to un-categorize it from being a hobby to being an actual, successful business. This is where fear takes hold. What if I fail? What will people think? As a self proclaimed perfectionist, I have a laundry list of excuses of why I need more time before I unleash:
1. "I need to do more research."
2. "I need to have everything organized first."
3. "I have so many ideas, I don't even know where to begin."
4. "That other stationer is way better so why should I even try?"
5. "I have to make all the lists first."
6. "It's not perfect so therefore not ready."
The list goes on. But this year, I choose to unleash. I choose to unleash my comfort zone into the realms of the unknown. I choose to unleash my creativity in boxes unbound. I choose to unleash my excuses and run trusting that God will lead.